Losing too much weight again..

Thats what I think Ashtanga is doing to me...;(

I'm one of those skinny women who can't seem to put on weight as it is..now I'm losing too much for my liking..

Seems like since I've put in all those jump backs (or my best rendition of them) into practice, I've been putting on bulk in the arms and shoulders and abs...but losing it where it counts;P Now this might be fine if I had much to spare, but the only place I've got some spare meat is in the hips and butt...

I'm now trying to cut down on the vinyasas a bit, and eating like a horse just to see if it helps me bulk up more. I can see the bones sticking out of my ribs and collarbones and shoulders...ewwww...

Well I know, this is not a blog about my how I look and Ashtanga, but its a real bummer for me, and I'm pretty darn vain. I don't see how some people can practice just as much or more than me and still remain quite curvy all over while I'm kinda wasting away...

Recently I had dinner with a whole bunch of people who practice and one of the girls had lost so much weight that she looks positively sickly. I'm really afraid to look like that.

On the other hand, obviously with weight loss, its much easier for me to lift up etc. Yes the jumpbacks have improved, and so have jumping back from tithibasana. I have to admit its fun to lift so high up after bhuja and supta k into titthibasana/bakasana and then jump back. I've seem to have gotten a whole lot better at doing that action.

The other day, my new teacher was trying to get me to jump back from upavista. I don't usually do that exit, cos I always just cross and lift. But he asked me to just press down after urdva upavista konasana and lift up. It was good (by my standards). I got my hips up almost into a handstand!!! but once I pull them back from there into bakasana, I fell out of it... I never thought I could do that though.
It always looked to much anti-gravity for me to pull off.

Everything is a little stiff and weak these few days because its the time of the month and I'm also easing off everything to hopefully not have to look like a walking skeleton.

No progress in any poses...but lots of muscular development in the arms and abs like I said. I can pretty much see my six pack....which to be honest wasn't what I was hoping to achieve...think its a little too much for a woman. I prefer a much softer look...