I've not posted an update for a while. Main;y because I'm taking a self imposed break from Ashtanga right now. Before I go into detail on this, I was in Singapore recently and went to see J. Had a decent primary series practice with him considering I've cut down my practice to maybe once a week. He told me my current lack of motivation was common, and that just like a relationship, once the first bloom is over, we got to work on it. He was extremely encouraging and wasn't a all surprised about my condition.
Anyway I didn't go into detail with him about why I was demotivated, but I'll come clean here. This might sound controversial but I believe all the daily practice has been aging me..and fast. I lost quite a fair bit of body fat the last 2 years, and being in my early thirties, I believe the body no longer loses fat where I want it to lose. I noticed that unlike in my youth, when the fat would go from the hips and butt and jawline, now I lose my bust, my cheeks and under the eyes.
The past few weeks after cutting down a lot on my practice, I look a little more healthy and less skin and bones, but I also notice the weight distribution is coming back a little differently than before...mostly going directly to the hips..and not much to other places.
So...because I have always been vain about my looks..I need to back off and see what I can do to restore myself. It might sound silly to other people..but this weight loss and aging is really getting to me..and before I can come back to the practice..I need to deal with it.