I've not posted an update for a while. Main;y because I'm taking a self imposed break from Ashtanga right now. Before I go into detail on this, I was in Singapore recently and went to see J. Had a decent primary series practice with him considering I've cut down my practice to maybe once a week. He told me my current lack of motivation was common, and that just like a relationship, once the first bloom is over, we got to work on it. He was extremely encouraging and wasn't a all surprised about my condition.
Anyway I didn't go into detail with him about why I was demotivated, but I'll come clean here. This might sound controversial but I believe all the daily practice has been aging me..and fast. I lost quite a fair bit of body fat the last 2 years, and being in my early thirties, I believe the body no longer loses fat where I want it to lose. I noticed that unlike in my youth, when the fat would go from the hips and butt and jawline, now I lose my bust, my cheeks and under the eyes.
The past few weeks after cutting down a lot on my practice, I look a little more healthy and less skin and bones, but I also notice the weight distribution is coming back a little differently than before...mostly going directly to the hips..and not much to other places.
So...because I have always been vain about my looks..I need to back off and see what I can do to restore myself. It might sound silly to other people..but this weight loss and aging is really getting to me..and before I can come back to the practice..I need to deal with it.
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I think it is good that you are listening to yourself. Btw, I enjoy reading your blog. Thanks for sharing!
Hey Fellow Malaysian;)
I also enjoy reading your blog..
Perhaps I will follow in your footsteps and make a trip to Mysore in the future..;)
Mysore is indeed a special place. If you have the time to spare, go soon! Besides, if you like Indian food, the food there is excellent! My wife and her sister put on weight when they went to practice with Sharath!
how funny about your gaunt facial situation. i noticed exactly the same thing, sallow complexion, sunken eyes, basically looked like something from Tales from the Crypt. I have dialled back a lot in the last 2 years and am happier and less emaciated. i guess everyone is different.
Sharmini...I'm glad to hear you have the same issue..so I'm not alone;) Its improved for you? I'm still looking a little like tales from the Crypt;)but hopefully will fatten up soon..hahaha
M_in_M...at the rate I'm practising, I'm not sure I can go to Mysore and get past half primary..heheh. I think I have lost half my strength..sigh...all for the sake of vanity ;P But maybe in the next 2 years...
Hi, I really enjoyed reading your blog and admire your motivation. I just started ashtanga with J a few months ago and I find it really hard to motivate myself to practice daily. I'm currently struggling with Bhujapidasana and really hope to balance my head on the floor without falling on my butt :P
Hey Bluestorm;)
you are practising with J? hahahah..he's a funny guy don't you think. You are in Singapore?
I spent a long time trying to get Bhujapidasana right as well, couldn't get my head down and the heels to clear the floor for a long time! But you'll get it eventually I am sure!
Am excited J is coming to Kuala Lumpur this month;) I may go..even if it means just doing half primary..
Oh J is going to be in KL this month? I didn't know that....I heard he was in Hawaii this week.
Yes he's a funny guy but I think he doesn't like me asking too many questions as he always said everything will come with practice. Haha...I guess he's right but I have to discover that for myself.
Hey you mentioned you started doing some face exercises, I'm also very interested in that as I've just hit the big 30. Have you got any good recommendation? Thanks! :)
Hey Bluestorm,
Hmmm..my long message just got deleted...
He's coming after Hawaii I think 20-25 April. Yes..you get that too?? the don't ask so many questions talk?? He's that way I think...although I'm not sold on it..he should be teaching us that right? Hope he doesn't read blogs! haha
Yes google flexeffect or louiseannete.proboards
for face exercise programs..They work for me..but I think you have to start very gently though, otherwise the skin looks stressed out. But after some time, there are some pleasant changes to the face shape and all..let me know if you give it a whirl!;)
Thanks for sharing that and I will definitely keep you posted if I start on it! :)
Oh I totally agree with you on the bit that he should be teaching us (and yes, hope he doesn't read blogs too...kekeke). Maybe I'm the sort that needs to figure things out in my head before I can get my body into doing it....well different people learn in different ways afterall. Hiaks!
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